This, That, and Not Much

Today has been a low key day . . . always nice to have one of those kind of days after two busy days. We all went to eat lunch . . . the oldest grandchild picked and he wanted Thai . . . oh my gosh can you say yummy? Those who lived in Germany when we did know that we visited the Thai restaurant in Graf all the time. I ordered something that tasted just like that dish in the bowl with chicken, red and green curry, peppers and that coconut milk/peanut sauce . . . do you remember? I ate the entire serving all alone. Did I mention how good it was? I can't wait to go back there and the boy did pretty good even though we got caught in terrible traffic and lunch was during nap time. After lunch everyone went a different direction . . . I took Colin for a haircut at this neat place for kids. He sat in a car and watched Bob the Builder . . . never even moved . . . amazing! We finally made it home and he is taking a nap . . . a little late but better late than never. Tonight I am heading to Frisco to have dinner with Michelle . . . love to chat with her and she is fun to hang out with . . . she gets my life and situation because she too knows all to well what it is like to lose your best friend in Iraq . . . she just learned about a year earlier than me. Colin is going swimming while I am gone . . . big step for me to leave him and 'trust' someone else to take him.

In my post a few days ago I talked about having a trust issue with the in-laws. They have never given me a reason to not trust them it is 100% all me. Colin is my life . . . my only connection to Sean . . . I don't know what I would do if anything happened to him . . . I think I would just die inside and out. He is a living reminder of Sean each and everyday . . . even when he has his temper fits. I admit I am very overprotective but that is my choice. I am even that way with my own parents . . . it is what I need to do for me. Just like this blog . . . it is for ME. When I started writing last year it was for me to put my thoughts and experiences on paper, sort of an online journal . . . a way for me to preserve and remember what I was doing. I know, I know it is weird to share my tragic loss and life with the world but that was not my intent. I then shared with a few friends . . . I knew my friends had questions about me and how I was really doing. It was a window into my world . . . I have been very open with my life the last two years but I know some don't feel comfortable asking those personal questions . . . this was a way for me to answer without them having to ask. I don't mind strangers checking in and reading what I write. I am always hesitant to write about the in-laws because it is a very sticky topic. My rule is that if I won't verbalize my thoughts to them then I can't write them either. I think that is pretty fair. I have had a ton of thoughts but have never written them because I don't think it is right . . . okay, enough about that topic. I will continue to write and I am sure I will continue to upset someone . . . oh well, so is life!

I also got a message that two of my three summer school kiddos passed their test so they get to go to 4th grade . . . can I say that I am totally amazed! I should have had some sort of contract offering a monetary bonus for each child that passed . . . just kidding. I did my job and that makes me feel good . . . wish all could have passed but honestly I did not expect any of them to pass. I think I was pretty successful with my two jobs this past year . . . I only had 21 days with the summer school kids . . . they had already failed the test two times so I was happy with the results. My regular job of teaching math was good too . . . only had one fail and have to repeat 5th grade . . . she failed every quarter with her regular classroom teacher too so I don't think it was me. A warm fuzzy kind of feeling . . . maybe we will stay one more day and leave on Friday instead of tomorrow . . . really, we are enjoying our time here with the family.